Becca

"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up."
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I prayed today. I am not religious, not in the least. However, if there is a God, I’d like to think, I made some sort of difference.

I prayed today. I am not religious, not in the least. However, if there is a God, I’d like to think, I made some sort of difference.

It is a new year and with that it brings new beginnings. I am done pretending to be someone I wasn’t. I don’t have anyone to hold me back or to judge me for my actions. I have some regrets from last year but now it not the time to dwell on those. There is no changing the past. Now is the time to look ahead and plan the future. Though I am not one who has a plan. I figure things out as I go. Soon, but not too soon I will have to make major life decisions. Will I stay here or go there? I would more than gladly go there if asked. I wish I knew what the future has in store, but whatever it may be I know what decision I would make. 

It has been such a long time since I have been on my tumblr. If it wasn’t for it being in my bookmark bar I would probably have forgotten about it. This semester has been pretty intense. All this change in a matter of weeks has caught up to me. If it wasn’t for the support of my family, and Tyler I probably would have crashed and burn. I feel like there is only more change to come. As I said before I used to fight change. I had a routine and kept things the same way for such a long time. However, I believe change is good for everyone and there is nothing to do but embrace it instead of fighting it. I know if my Mother was here with me she would be proud of me.

The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name.
It’s beautiful, wonderful, don’t you ever change.

I am scared, and I don’t know why.

I don’t know if there is a Heaven or not, but I like to think you’re keeping a watchful eye over me. It’s been 11 years and I miss you more than ever. I hope you would be proud of me if you were still here today. Happy Birthday Mom, I miss you more than ever.

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I tried over and over to write the perfect sentence describing the love I have for him. Each time the words just didn’t seem good enough. Today he told me he needs me. Those words brought tears to my eyes. Never has someone told me they needed me or loved me. However, when he says it I see the utmost sincerity in his eyes, and that is all I need. I’ll will always love you.

I tried over and over to write the perfect sentence describing the love I have for him. Each time the words just didn’t seem good enough. Today he told me he needs me. Those words brought tears to my eyes. Never has someone told me they needed me or loved me. However, when he says it I see the utmost sincerity in his eyes, and that is all I need.

I’ll will always love you.

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